[ While not popular, he's never not had friends. Freaks flock to freaks and he was king of them, ruling over his little court. This is a new kind of loneliness.
Usually a little younger than him, the eternal senior, but friends all the same. People who were around when he needed the company. And the great thing about always having a minimum of three is usually, one is on the outs of any issue you're having. People to distract him when things were shit.
He misses Gareth being a fucking downer, and he misses Jeff's rationality, and Grant always being ready to go to war over absolutely fucking nothing. Misses Dustin being the eternal spot of sunshine, ready to be a goddamn know-it-all about shit no one else cares about. Lucas being just a little too cool for them and knowing it, loyal all the same. Mike not knowing what the fuck he was doing at any given time being being ready to jump in when you called for him.
[in ten minutes he’s fine; a little less tense, cigarette in hand as he tries to reconnect the fuzzy threads of his awareness back together. he isn’t sure he feels better, but to be honest he also isn’t sure why he feels like shit either.
maybe this is why he stopped doing friends. ]
whenever it’s f
fine if you wanna backtrack dude i’m not a pussy hahahaha
[ don't respond don't respond you know it's a bad idea eddie don't reply eddie he's drunk you're high its gonna go ba -- ]
I would rather go back to being thrown in dumpsters than to stay in the middle of this pissing contest. I'm into a lot of weird shit, man, but golden showers are NOT one of them.
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Usually a little younger than him, the eternal senior, but friends all the same. People who were around when he needed the company. And the great thing about always having a minimum of three is usually, one is on the outs of any issue you're having. People to distract him when things were shit.
He misses Gareth being a fucking downer, and he misses Jeff's rationality, and Grant always being ready to go to war over absolutely fucking nothing. Misses Dustin being the eternal spot of sunshine, ready to be a goddamn know-it-all about shit no one else cares about. Lucas being just a little too cool for them and knowing it, loyal all the same. Mike not knowing what the fuck he was doing at any given time being being ready to jump in when you called for him.
He's still awake come 2AM when the phone dings. ]
raincheck?
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[his thumb is a traitor. half-way hovering over e when he’s distracted - and okay yes he definitely is busy - and instead hits send. ]
eeeah
[he’s half laughing. a little high, a lot out of focused.]
rain zeck. 🙏🏻
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Cool.
Let me know when.
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maybe this is why he stopped doing friends. ]
whenever
it’s f
fine if you wanna backtrack dude i’m not a pussy hahahaha
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ass pain reliever i can vouch.
[ be serious billy -]
maybe we should make out
hear me out
and then vomit just so he gets the picture.
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I would rather go back to being thrown in dumpsters than to stay in the middle of this pissing contest. I'm into a lot of weird shit, man, but golden showers are NOT one of them.
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1st for me my man
usually when someone tells me to nack off i already fuxkes their squeeze
[ BE SERIOUS BILLY - ]
i’ll fix it in the am
promise.
we’ll b w good boys.
proooomise.
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There's a crit fail on the impulse to chuck his phone he'll regret in the morning. ]