[he knows the shoulder his shirt is damp now. tears and snot, hot against his skin. it's a revelation not to be mad about it. it's a revelation to rock Eddie through this, to eventually just let him be.
if he's honest, maybe he likes the warmth against him. maybe he likes being close to another person in a way that isn't a quick fuck, or a fight. maybe Billy isn't as hollow as he lets himself believe, because he feels angry for Eddie. feels like he could take Vecna on by himself again just to give him some relief.
he doesn't know what to do with that. so he keeps holding him. let's his hand rest on Eddie's lower back, let's Eddie get himself back together, keeps busying his hand in his hair, and exhales a stilted breath. knows he should go and get Steve, soon. knows that he promised to stay, but that Eddie will want Steve, not him. it makes sense. ]
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if he's honest, maybe he likes the warmth against him. maybe he likes being close to another person in a way that isn't a quick fuck, or a fight. maybe Billy isn't as hollow as he lets himself believe, because he feels angry for Eddie. feels like he could take Vecna on by himself again just to give him some relief.
he doesn't know what to do with that. so he keeps holding him. let's his hand rest on Eddie's lower back, let's Eddie get himself back together, keeps busying his hand in his hair, and exhales a stilted breath. knows he should go and get Steve, soon. knows that he promised to stay, but that Eddie will want Steve, not him. it makes sense. ]