You're not a bad person for wishing you'd stayed alive.

[he's tight in his hugs. like maybe this is the first real one he's gave in a long time; like he's scared Eddie might disappear if he lets go. ] You're human. Eddie, we're just fucking kids.

[he's a little breathless. they're just kids. Billy never made it to eighteen, not really. something else did in his place. idly, he finds his fingers scratching at Eddie's scalp. soothing. ] Be mad about it. Hate it. I fucking do.